At this point, I dont know what has me more exhausted in 2020. Being a mother or being a small business owner. Thankfully, other than website fees, I have no overhead bills for my business. But, what do you do when everyone is getting upset because you just don’t have the energy to work anymore? I spend all day doing e learning and house chores and being stuck at home with my kids that I just can’t mentally handle working my business anymore.
At first I thought that meant there was something wrong with me. I felt like I was failing because unlike so many others, I couldn’t handle doing this e learning, quarantine life on top of working my business. And seeing others thrive and keep going made me feel even more defeated. I felt like I was weak compared to them. How do they have the energy? How are they still going? How do they have time?
Then I realized I’m not the only one struggling. I’m not the only one drowning in defeat. I currently dont have the answers for how to get out of this feeling. But, I am now realizing that it is okay to feel this way. It is okay to be depressed. It is okay to just hit pause on your business until you’re ready to pick it back up. It is okay to focus on you and your family. Maybe start a new adventure. Maybe this craziness in life is going to show us that the path we were on with our businesses wasn’t the right one for us. Maybe we will find a new joy in this and figure out how to build that joy into our businesses. But right now, it is okay to just pause and to not have a date for when you want to unpause by. Just let your mind do what it needs to do to get through this moment in life.